Continued pilfering of other sources
This one from Amber Hollibaugh, my dangerous desires (or so I'm told.)

"The memory of our histories is often constructed to work as our
conscience as well as to configure our secret desires. We wander through
our own minds endlessly, figuring and reconfiguring our stories, our
memories, our realities, so that they will line up with the choices we are
making, the dreams we are desperately fashioning, the stories we hope to
explain us, the lovers we desire, the world as we wish it to be."

Does that explain some of those thoughts that just seem to *pop* out of nowhere? Or the ones I can't escape?