A lackluster race is still a good way to start the day
The lost hour, the return of darkness, the cocoon of sheets and blankets are all possible causes for my lack of Sunday morning enthusiasm. It was race day. Race day usually means jittery nerves and a joyous outlook on life, but this Sunday it primarily meant that my clock said 7:00 AM and my body felt 6:00 AM. I stumbled through a pre-sunshine grey, unable to even put in race day contacts, opting instead for the less competitive, less aerodynamic spectacles.

Outside it was cold, freezing even; the 70 degrees of last Tuesday forgotten under a black layer of thermal wear. The borrowed car couldn't heat fast enough and my teeth clacked. Spots of ice dotted the first section of the course, but a short warm up assuaged any fears that ice would be a constant concern. The trails were rolling and clear, gravity had taken water on an alternate route.

Runners gathered around the indoor registration tables, neither huddling together nor rushing out to the starting line. With the start time approaching, I shed one layer and headed back out into the cold with the masses. It wasn't warmth that greeted me, but I knew that I still had on too many clothes. Turning around, I fought back through the school of fish headed to the line and shed another layer. Down to shorts, a long sleeve shirt, and my Bad Habit jersey, nun poised for a fight, I donned my stocking cap and made my way to the starting line. As soon as I stepped out again a gust of wind called my decision into question, but the wind quieted as quickly as it had threatened my internal organs with the prospect of solidifying into a frozen mass.

After Go, I found myself jostling to position myself comfortably and avoid the ice patches. Within 200 meters, I was in third. At about 400 meters of this 5 km affair, the neck of the second place runner rose up. He glanced around uncomfortably and downshifted. I was in second and chasing a strong-looking leader. His pace was licking the heels of my discomfort, but we were already alone. My only choices seemed to be run alone or fight to stay on him. I chose the latter.

He pressed on through the mile at 5:32. As we climbed the hill, the recreational nature of my training whispered like wind through the leafless trees. I spent the next half mile or so clinging to an expanding gap between us. He never looked back. Alone in the trees, bobbing up and down the hills of a concrete path I ran on, my focus shifting back and forth from the hopes of a second wind to the fear of an epic collapse. My lungs filled with cold air and wouldn't expand the way I'd hoped. My legs chopped along up and down and up and down, but never quite found the smooth stride that can momentarily take the pain away. I crossed the 2-mile in 11:32 and carried on to the finish. It was the sun, the volunteer race officials, and me; even as I looped past runners on an earlier section of the course, I could only grimace and try not to clip them with what had begun to feel like flailing. I crested the final hill still in a competitive no man's land. With my head cocked I summoned a small surge to carry the boxing nun on my hip to a finish in 18:31.